SPIN THE WHEEL PLEASE

I've neglected this space. I'm sorry. Sorry, space.

Ok so, I've ORD-ed almost 2 weeks ago, and I've found a job. Which begins tomorrow, and I can't sleep.

I knew I would have mixed feelings about ORD when I saw this day coming. I always have mixed feelings when leaving a certain job, or school which I may dislike very much in the beginning.

I always feeling kinda happy that I'm moving on to something else, but also sad that I'm leaving that said school/job/whatever.

Well, I saw this day coming so I guess I'll be over it sooner.

So anyway, I'm glad to have found a job and I am excited about it. I heard it'll be very stressful but I think I should be able to take it.

Which makes me remember, I always preferred a high salary but stressful and full-of-shit job to a meaningful but low paying one.

Now I'm having second thoughts. I'm constantly asking myself, "What if I hate the place?", "What if I hate the people? I hate people all the time, well, this time it's the corporate bastards, what if I hate them more?".

The interview itself was pretty scary for me. It's the first time I've been to an interview for a job that I need. Like, really NEED because I'm really broke now.

It used to be fine for me to be broke because I can always ask money from my parents. Or steal from my dad(that's another story for another time).

But now, I'm 21, and my parents should be celebrating that I'm not already asking money from, but it's really time I give them money.

I am broke, so broke that I'm already borrowing money from my brother, and I haven't paid him the money for the gift we shared for our mom on Mothers' Day.

This is a big change for me. When I was serving NS, I was so used to having something to do, so used to making the usual decisions, so used to the work in the army.

But this week, I'm free to do everything I want, sleep anytime in the day, wake up anytime I want, I am actually slowly getting used to being free.

And then I slowly spend every cent I have away.

Then I find another place to bind up my time, so I can make money to spend again.

So anyway, I heard of this logic about Getting a Low-income Job You Like Vs. Getting a High-income Job You Dislike.

See, let's say you got the latter, and you make $10,000 a month, but it consumes all your time, and you only manage to enjoy 1 day a week, and probably have a rest-month in 1 year. So mathematically, you enjoy 5 weeks a year.

Now for getting a low-income job you like, you make $1,000 a month, but you enjoy every hour of the job. Let's not forget you're definitely enjoying the weekends too. You enjoy 12 months a year!

I know, but $1,000 cannot feed family, cannot buy car, cannot buy house, maybe can pay some of the bills.

That, is the perfect example of what life is. Life sucks. That's what it is.

So anyway, I'm lucky to have a brother, and have seen how he lived his life when he just ORD-ed. So I guess it's a good thing for me to have found a job this quick.

Whoever is reading this, thanks.

You're welcome too, because this post is a reminder for you that life sucks.

Celebrations!

As usual... the holiday periods are here.

And the celebrations. But it gets worse every year.

Anyway something in the army to note. The other day I was sitting on a table when my SGT came to me and asked how heavy I am.

I replied and he said WTF.. Tell you all so many times don't sit on the table. Now go make a sign saying NO SITTING and whoever caught will sit on the floor for 1 month.

I did that.

And few hours later everyone saw the sign and laughed. And Ah Heng planned something with me.

So he called WALIM over and had a chat with him.

Heng: Eh, come here talk lah, there so hot.

WALIM: Ya what you wanted to talk about?

Heng: So how? Your IPPT? Don't intend to pass?

WALIM: I cannot pass my standing broad jump leh.

Heng: Sit down lah, stand whole day still not tired?

And as soom as WALIM sat on the table, I entered the office to get SGT to come and see.

HAHA. Tio spot.

Boring.

It's not so easy.

What. The. Fuck.

My internet is sucky. Or maybe it is my computer but I'm quite sure it's the internet because I get disconnected immediately after logging in any program. Like WOW. Or B.net. Or MSN. Even youtube stops loading at 1/10 .

Why!

I was on leave for about 8 days, and I pretty much couldn't use my computer at all. That ended up with me spending a little too much money because I was too smart to rot at home, I went out everyday.

And I failed my traffic police test.

But I was pretty shocked that my family and friends were all anxious about the results. Ahhh.. How moving.

So anyway as I cannot use any internet program, I can still use IE and have to refresh every page, I got bored and went to google myself.

And the results from the web are too massive for me to filter myself out, I tried searching for the pages from Singapore.

I thought I would find my blog or my friendster account or something.

But the only 2 results I got are posts from Vicki's blog.

Not that it's bad, I mean I feel pretty honoured that she DREAMT OF ME.

LOL.. And other people la. It's just that I was part of the dream and she said she couldn't figure out why anyway. The main part of the dream was about Felicia, and I had a dream about her too.

So anyway I later tried again at googling my name on the WWW and found my fucking old Hi5 account. And saw a journal of mine and that inspired me to blog.

Ha.

Anyway life is pretty sucky for me at the moment.. At least it's moving on and that's pretty much the only good thing now.

And I'm thinking what the fuck to do my for 21st birthday.

I really don't know, because my friend told me he went to this birthday celebration of his friend's, and that dude actually booked 2 chalets for like many many nights and invited every living human being he knew.

That costs a fucking submarine missile.

I can't do that.

Maybe I should just book a basketball court and get some dudes to try basketball with me.

And I said "try".

That means I can't play basketball.

Ha. Kidding.

Thanks...

football

DAMN LONG!

Haven't updated for DAMN LONG! Been wanting to the past few weeks but lost the drive when I got home.

So.. Uncle bought me a new computer and I'm really thankful he did.

He also bought me a Longines watch the previous time he came back.

I intended to go to sleep after this Real Madrid v Ath Madrid match, but it is impossible.

That's because the match is so exciting it's got me sitting up and jumping up and down.

I support Real Madrid, so you know, they were at 1 - 0 till 88 minutes. They didn't really attacked at the second half, have no idea wtf they were doing. Ath Madrid was doing all the offense and I was so pissed @ Real.

"Fucking assholes, they keep this up, Ath is bound to get a score."

AND THEY FUCKING DID. AT 88th minute.

And Real Madrid came back up on offense. And thank heavens for the 6 minutes injury time, Real got a penalty shot at 95th minute! And they SCORRRRREEDD!!!

2 - 1.

Still unable to sleep.

Wah 2 months already.

Ouch. Really apologise for the lack of updates. To the blog I mean, it isn't like i'm not aware no one's reading already, lol. Well with the exception of SYS, of course.

I've always been wanting to update, but I guess it's because I found a substitution for this blog.. I have a notepad in camp, and usually when I'm on duty and have nothing to do, I'll write in it. Yes my duty usually involves only me and my dog, though technically I'm not alone, but Donna doesn't understand a single word I say. Well, besides the commands.

I understand, having a notepad as a journal sounds pretty gay. No choice, man.

Some colours for the post. This picture was taken on my birthday. I think I was yawning and didn't notice my mom was taking pictures of us.

And my POP. I miss BMT, man!

Not very slim then, but slimmer than now. Aiya.

Anyway, nothing much to update on recently. But my Xbox spoilt, and I spent 180rm to repair it. Er.. Spent $168 on a computer chair too, cuz the previous one spoilt on me too. But this new chair rocks, it's really comfortable.

I'm happy to spend on things like this, well, at least it beats spending on drinks.

P Q Foooooo

Anyway recently in camp when I'm not on duty, I bring out the badminton raquets and have games of badminton. I love badminton.

But I lost all my raquets leh? But is raquets spelt like that?

Anyway I think I'm going to go buy a few raquets pretty soon. I keep wanting to play with my bro but we can't find the badminton raquets. I think we lost them when we moved.

It's been a long time since I had a proper game of badminton. The games in camp aren't proper because it's outdoor and always windy so it's hard to play, but have to make do with it, coz I can't play soccer.

Soccer is every dude's thing it seems. People keep talking about EPL, how Man U owned this team, how this team trashed that team.

It gets boring whenever they talk about it. But I understand the excitement, because I do watch soccer when it's the world cup. Or when I place a bet.

But it's been a long time since I bet on soccer. I don't get addicted to soccer betting so I guess it's fine for me.

Anyway new guys posted over here again.. everytime new guys get posted here, my work feels lighter... And my mood too. Because it feels closer to ORD.

Can almost smell the O of ORD already already.

Part of me is afraid to ORD, because I seriously have no idea what to do.

I understand how tough it is to live without enough cash, this world is all about the cash man.

When I ORD, I can't just keep spending money and wait for the 10th to come. The 10th won't be the same again.

And I always hear from the laojiaos that ORD about what they decide to do, and everything they''re planning is everything I hope I won't be doing. One of them said he'll try to get a job in Mediacorp as the person who plays the commercial everytime there is a commercial break.

Got such a job meh?

But I don't want to be doing that when I ORD.

Another dude says he still didn't know what to do.

I don't want to be like that too.

It's still not too late to think of what I want to do, I guess.

LOL, I still have a year. Anyway camp life sucks abit now, I have to stay back for RT. It's okay with me, the RT, but it starts at 3pm on my off days.

OFF days leh. And now suddenly there's a whole event going on, so instead of booking usually at 3pm, I have to boook in in the morning, 8am.

FUCKKKKK.

Whoa whoa whoa

It's the 9th month of my NS life now. I'm pretty glad that time passes by so quickly, but I couldn't believe I am still missing my BMT life.

I managed to see one of my BMT mate during duty, and I missed BMT even more. Well, no point talking about it, it's all past now.

So anyway I celebrated my birthday awhile ago, it was okay, little fun here and there. I'm 20 already.

I don't know why, but there's just this concept in my mind. I feel like any age below 20 isn't mature. But then, the difference between 20 and 19 is just one year. But I just sort of think that once you reach 20 you're like, an adult.

Not that I feel I've matured a lot, I still feel like a teenager, to be honest.

So anyway my brother went off to be a property agent, and I'm pretty darn proud of him. He's hardworking, for whatever reason he has, but it's surprising.

You know, when we were kids, he was so lazy that he would lie down on his bed in the room, without turning on the air-con or fan, even if it is fucking warm. He just had to lie on the bed and his body would just meld into the bed. And every single day I had to turn on the air-con for him.
If I didn't, he would just not stop whining till I did.

Well, comparing him to when we were kids isn't fair, hah. I was an even worse bastard child back then.

The weather these days is just shiok. I love the rain for many reasons.

Anyway, I got back up to learning driving again. I went on hiatus for more than a year, and it's really difficult for me to get back up on it again. I just hope that this time, I won't stop after failing a few theory exams, because I wasted too much money on it already.

Anyway I remembered a story Tim told me 2 years ago. He had a friend who borrowed money from his dad to go for driving lessons, and I guess his family isn't too well-off. And that dude, used the money all on soccer betting, and lost it all away, haha. But here's the sad part. The next day, after losing all the money, he returns home. And his mom said,"Boy ah, can you return me the money? Daddy has got throat cancer.. He needs the money for the treatment."

Hey suddenly I feel like I've typed this before. Nevermind.

I still miss BMT. I don't know if I'm normal to miss BMT this much. I asked a few of my other friends and they said "Ok lah, not much."

I feel like an overseas student missing his family. I guess that's enough update for now, gotta run!

UPdates

Hello again

I don't know man, everytime when I'm in camp, I'll be thinking of what to type and all, but when I reach home I forget everything.

I thought of buying a notebook to bring it everywhere with me. Anyway camp life is fine up till today. Can't wait for the time to pass, the feeling of booking in sucks alot.

Though sometimes it's quite fun in camp, but only sometimes, because I guess there are people whom I don't really like. Well, it happens everywhere.

I finished the whole season of Supernatural, and I think I'm addicted to it. Sigh, DVDs. Have no more DVDs to watch already..

I'm thinking of where to celebrate my birthday because it's coming reaaaalllyyyyy soon, but I always just sort of plan on drinking. I know it's bad, and boring to some people, but I really don't know what to do. It can't be just a dinner because everyone knows a celebration doesn't just stop there.

I really can't think of anything. Chalets are like out of the way, I know many people hate the idea of having to cramp at a place where there are little seats and little places to sleep, and waiting to eat a chicken wing for 15 minutes, only to realise it's not cooked enough.

But sometimes it's fun when everyone can get together and play stupid drinking games, especially when not in public, because in public people don't want others to see themselves playing stupid games and laughing too loudly, and vomitting and all that ugly shit.

It's fine if among your own friends.

But it's really troublesome to organise a chalet. Buying all the food when no one really finishes them. And it's ok if it's one group of friends, but on birthdays you usually invite all your friends, and most of the time not all of them know each other and it gets awkward when one of the group isn't enjoying.

How?

I suddenly find the idea of a chalet quite fun but there's really too much to think about. Sigh.

So then, back to drinking already. Drinking at least the people who don't know each other can just get on with their own drinking in the pub themselves. In the chalet people feel obligated to get involved.

No choice, mah.

Even if drinking, the question is "Where?". See sometimes the sleazy places like boat quay, discussion etc etc, are cheaper, and if you go in a big group you pretty much own the place for the night.

But there are people who hate these places, I understand. I also don't enjoy going if it weren't cheaper. I don't enjoy sharing the same oxygen with the 17year old xiao bengs who want to act like they're 20+ year olds. I guess they just don't understand, 20+ year olds don't wear Pink Polo Tees and colour their hair green, purple, blue, pink or any weird colour anymore.

But if we don't go to these sort of places, the drinks will be expensive.

Can't think of anything else already, really.